For those who have not read my mommy blog, I am officially no longer a production machine. Since the procedure, I never actually had time to dwell on the issue.
Recently, I’ve read about a fellow blogger’s emotional struggle with a similar decision but it was her husband who was going for the snip. That brought back memories and emotions. Though I was 200% 100% sure of my decision, I cannot but feel a tinge of sadness for having gone through the procedure. I will no longer feel pregnant, go through the roller coaster of pregnancy, deliver another baby and enjoy the bonding of breastfeeding a baby. It was a FULL STOP as far as babies are concerned.
Some may say I have gone cuckoo or that my hormones lack of it are at work. Indeed, I am grateful that I do not have to take care of colicky babies, have sleepless nights and wonder why the baby is bawling for no apparent reason. Oh yes, I am celebrating the fact that those days are over as age is catching up with me.
On the other hand, I believe I am entitle to grieve in silence or in my blog. After all, I am still a mommy. Show me a mommy that does not love babies and I’ll show you a pregnant daddy.
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